INK XVIII

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Current news goes as such:

1. I got my wisdom teeth out and have scarcely left my house for the past four days. Lammme. The surgery didn't go as well as they had hoped and they had to dislocate my jaw in order to get one of the teeth out, not that I remember any of that, that's just what I've been told.

2. I have recently become far more dedicated to learning guitar and I am LOVING it. I have, since I was just a wee thing, wanted to play the guitar but I've always been too lazy to actually do it, until now yay!

3. So weird, Not My Type and I have actually stayed in contact. Like a lot of contact. We have texted or called each other every day since I left Aspen and he even came down to the city for a night for a concert, I didn't get to see him though :( (mostly my fault, lack of communication whatevs...) The big bummer though? 'Cause there is always a big bummer, I was right. I was totally, absolutely, 100% being played. Not My Type has a girlfriend. Shit. I realize that I should probably end all communication with him because supposedly I have more morals than to consciously cheat with someone, but he's just so gosh darn cute. Besides since I've been unbelievably high since I got my wisdom removed I can't help but call him at 2 in the morning every day. I hope that ends once I sober up a bit, but we shall see. Stupid guys with girlfriends, why do you make everything so frackin' complicated?

4. The countdown continues until Marmaduke returns and the time is actually ticking by quite quickly. It's slightly terrifying to me for some reason, maybe it's because he gets home, stays home for 7 days and then goes to school. I'm pretty sure we're over, not that we ever were. All I can say is Thank God, I'm freeeeeeeeee. Here's to hot, single, college boys right around the corner!

5. I haven't had any luck with publication thus far, meaning I've sent out 5 query letters and received 3 no's already, fingers crossed for the last two! I think at this point I'm just going to edit it myself and then publish it on Kindle. I've read into it and it seems like a pretty decent alternative to hardback publication and definitely to self publication (which is a horrible idea to any of you who are looking into it).

6. Summer is going TOO quickly and I'm starting to fureak out a little bit. I can say though, that I have somehow managed to do everything I wanted to do. I finished my book, I have taken up photography, learned the guitar, met new people, done something rebellious, and met a new boy. I feel accomplished, I just have to remind myself sometimes.

Word of advice for the day: Life goes fast, remember to look at the things you've accomplished to help it slow down. Also, Take A Minute by K'Naan is gureat, listen to it if you haven't already.

INK XVII

Oh boy it's been a long time. I've been focusing my writing attention on adding the finishing touches to my fourth book (yes!) and the query letters that go along with it. Aside from that my summer has proved abnormally busy considering the fact that I am only slightly productive. I just spent the last week and a half in Aspen and then came down from the mountains and went directly to my orientation for college. It's been a busy week. If you're wondering about my odd love triangle here is the latest news:

1. Marmaduke is in fact no longer in the country. He messages me every once and awhile but our relationship is dwindling and I have found my self surprisingly okay with that. Perhaps it's because of the fact that he never really treated me that well.

2. BFF has been slightly MIA but I suppose the separation is good for us. I've been busy in Aspen and writing and he's been playing so much tennis that his skin has actually turned black from the extended amount of time in the sun. I'm ready for new friends, is that bad to say?

3. Almost Famous and I casually hooked up the other night. We didn't talk about it or anything but it's understood between us that neither of us really like each other it was just we were the only sober ones at this club party downtown. It's not awkward between us at all, which is surprising considering I am admittedly one of the most awkward people ever.

4. I have actually fallen for a new guy. It's odd for me considering for the past two years I have been interested in either one of the three guys listed above. We're going to call this guy Not My Type, because he's not my typical taste. He's more skater/punk, but he's tall and attractive and has bright blue eyes, tan skin, a toned body, he's super nice, and he has earrings. He lives in Aspen, I can't believe I have a summer romance!

Anyway Not My Type did all the right things. He called me pretty, complimented my wardrobe, called me multiple times, begged me to follow him places. Basically he treated me the exact opposite as to how Marmaduke treated me, and it felt oh so good. That being said, I feel like I was a little played. I wonder how many girls he has done this to. You can only tell so much about a person through their facebook. I guess it doesn't really matter now though, seeing as I'm back home and he's still in Aspen. C'est la vie.

Right now I'm trying to focus on what I really want which is this:

I realllllllly want to get my book published. Since freshman year I've been learning about the publication process so that when I finally had a decent manuscript I would know what to do with it. I also want to get in shape so that I can feel confident during my first year in college. Lastly, I want to feel better. Over the past two years I have developed a mild case of insomnia. (I wonder if that has any correlation to Marmaduke? I don't think it does) Anyway, the doctors thought it was because I have celiac so I got way more focused and cut all the gluten out of my life. I feel exactly the same though, except for the fact that now I'm more sensitive to gluten, awesome. I'm supposed to go to the doctor again in about a week and they will decide if I need surgery or not. Apparently I have a really deviated septum so the reason I don't sleep is because I can't breathe. Who knows.

I'm tired and for some reason feel like crying. I'll try to post again soon but I can't promise anything. My focus is somewhere else.

Word of advice for the day: Sometimes it's not worth thinking about the consequences. There are consequences to everything but the aftermath shouldn't prevent you from doing something you really want to do. Also, even if you don't know how to work it right away, a high-quality camera is a very solid investment.